As I have spent these past couple of days hanging out with the old band we were talking about (who would’ve thought) music.. A couple issues were brought up….

I WILL BE TYPING IN CAPITALS TO ILLITERATE AS TO HOW PISSED OFF I AM

WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH KIDS TODAY?!?!? GOD FUCKING DAMN IT! I AM SO FUCKING AGITATED TO THE WHOLE FUCKING MUSIC SCENE TODAY. FUCKING KIDS AND THEIR GOD DAMN FASHION OVER PASSION. I HATE THAT SHIT. JUST BECAUSE YOU’RE IN A FUCKING BAND DOESN’T MEAN YOU HAVE TO DRESS THE DAMN PART. CUT THE SHIT OUT WITH YOUR FUCKING 3 1/2 INCH PLUGS, SUPER FUCKING TIGHT PANTS, FULL ARM TATTOO SLEEVES, ANGLED HAIR, STUPID BULLSHIT NEON FLANNELS, AND ALL THAT OTHER GARBAGE THAT MAKES YOUR “IDOLS” APPEAL TO YOU. YOUR FUCKING 17-18 YEARS OLD STOP BEING DUMB. WHAT THE FUCK?!?! THIS SHIT HAS GOT TO GO! WHAT THE FUCK IS IT WITH THIS DAMN SCREAMING SYNTHESIZER ELECTRO PSEUDO “HARDCORE” SHIT?!?! IT’S NOT HARDCORE IT’S FUCKING BULLSHIT THAT’S WHAT IT IS. WHAT HAPPENED TO THE HARDCORE THAT I LOVE, BANDS LIKE H2O, AGNOSTIC FRONT, MURPHY’S LAW, BAD BRAINS, BLOOD FOR BLOOD? THAT ‘S THE HARDCORE THAT I KNOW AND RESPECT NOT THIS PANSY ASS BULLSHIT. TOUR/SHOW PASSES SHOULDN’T BE FUCKING GIANT EITHER THEY SHOULD BE THE SIZE OF YOUR PALM NOT FUCKING 7”X5” FUCKING PIECES OF PLASTIC HANGING OFF OF YOUR GOD DAMN PANTS NEXT TO YOUR OBNOXIOUSLY COLORED PINK STUDDED BELT. CUT THE CRAP GOD DAMMIT! JESUS CHRIST! YOU’RE CLEARLY NOT HARDCORE SO SHUT IT. YOU DON’T LOOK FUCKING COOL EITHER. YOU LOOK LIKE A FUCKING DOUCHEBAG. GROW THE FUCK UP. SHIT THESE FUCKING KIDS MAKE ME EMBARRASSED TO BE PLAYING MUSIC AND GOING TO SHOWS. THESE ARE THE FUCKING KIDS IN THE PITS THAT ACT LIKE ASSHOLES AND START FLAILING AROUND AND WHEN THEY GET HIT START GETTING ALL TOUGH AND OUT OF CONTROL UNTIL THEY GO HOME AND CRY ABOUT IT. MAN UP! IT’S A PIT SHIT’S BOUND TO GO DOWN THE WRONG WAY EVENTUALLY, AND WHAT HAPPENED TO THE UNWRITTEN RULE. WHEN DID IT BECOME COOL TO 1)HIT PEOPLE WHEN THEY FALL AND NOT PICK THEM UP 2) HUG IT OUT AFTER YOU ACCIDENTALLY HIT SOMEONE 3) NOT TO MOVE AROUND AT SHOWS?!?!? GROW UP CUT THIS BULLSHIT FASHION OVER PASSION SHIT OUT AND PLAY MUSIC BECAUSE IT’S FUN AND ENJOYABLE NOT TO BE THE NEXT BIG THING, NOT TO GET GIRLS, HAVE FUN WITH IT DICK BAGS! BE FUCKING HUMBLE

“We’re liberated by the hearts that imprison us”-Every Time I Die 

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I looked at myself in the mirror when I got home today and I realized that I hate myself. I am a morbid sarcastic thick headed arrogant prideful son of a bitch. I hate a lot about myself. I hate the fact that I’m smart but so fucking lazy. I hate the way I destroy most of everything I hold dear. I hate how disrespectful I am to the ones who I hold in high regard. I despise the fact that I’m getting fat. I abhor the nature of human beings. I loathe the media and all it’s subsidiary industries. I hate the fact that I smoke. I hate the way I talk. I cant stand the way my voice sounds. I wish I was anybody but me sometimes. I hate the music I make. I hate how I procrastinate. I fucking hate how I always have to get the last word in edge wise. I despise the way I much rather sit in my boxers playing video games then be out making changes in my life. I can’t stand being sick. I loathe the way I lie about dumb shit. All in all I much rather be a smart mouthed alcoholic pill popping billionaire then who I am today.

“we reach the top we turn around so what’s the point when everything that goes up comes down”-my only escape

Tonight was one of those nights where you are perfectly content with throwing some beers back watching a shitty b rated horror movie chain smoking and laughing with your best friends. From what turned out to be a stressful day at work to one of the best boys nights I’ve had in awhile, I can say that it was more than welcomed and absolutely in every sense of the word needed.

“love your friends die laughing”

I’ve realized that I couldn’t be happier with where I am in life. In the past couple of hours I’ve done sone reflecting on what I’m doing and what I plan on doing in life.

I stumbled upon the fact that I have a wonderful and loving girlfriend and couldn’t be happier. The fact of the matter is that we can be utterly comfortable with each other. I have never felt so humble and comfortable in my own skin than when I am with her. For someone to just keep me grounded as much as she does and be ok with my antics is sheer love. Bland for that I am forever grateful.

My band is slowly regaining the speed we once had. Hustling and moving every step of the way. Getting ready to record our EP soon an jump on that show playing band wagon.

“it’s not about forcing happiness it’s about not letting sadness win”-The Wonder Years

I’m at a bar and I’m the most socially awkward human being around. Once again another time where I’m not comfortable in my own skin. I rather be outside smoking cigarettes till my ride comes then be in the bar with a bunch of gross slightly overweight middle aged single moms who are trying way to hard to find a stiff one to jump on tonight.

“I don’t need to pump my fist to look sweet”-The Wonder Years

You always say “I don’t want to make things awkward” well congratulations bitch ya just did. Always this always fucking happens now I am in complete understanding that we share some mutual friends but cut the shit already trying to get my boys to ditch me while I’m off doing something else is just down right immature and fucking spiteful. Get the fuck over yourself. And to think that you thought it would work is an even bigger joke. Do me a favor get off of your high horse. Stop trying to case so fucking much drama. It’s great to see who my real friends are. Go fuck yourself. If you want to start playing the awkward game I can easily win that shit. Just remember who’s on top of the ball now.

The best laid plans of mice and men often go awry

I got the new Wonder Years album today. I haven’t fully listened tithe entire thing but a good chunk of it. I like it mainly due to how it’s a whole new story. It is very thematic in it’s lyrics and music. It has been offering me a source of hope and inspiration much like “The Upsides” did overall I couldn’t be happier with the portion of the album that I listened to. I can’t wait to hear the rest of it. I’m going to stop typing now and get to listening, more to follow…

I’m fucking sick of thinking of all this shit. I’m fucking sick of you being selfish and always making everything about you. I’m sick of how I get scared of everything ranging from an ear infection to how fucking shitty my band is. I get fucking sick to my stomach because you lack the dedication to this project we have that we put so much time in. Considering dropping off the face of the earth and becoming a hermit